Whom Have I?

My taste in music has such a wide range, but my all time favorite has to be really good worship music. There is nothing that lifts my spirit more than giving praise to Jesus, and for me, music is the easiest way to do that.

I was listening to one of my favorites the other day (you can listen to it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ci31hEQinBA) and I couldn't help but just listen to the lyrics and think about how true they should be. The song starts out with 'Whom have I in Heaven but you, God? There is none on this earth that I desire besides you, Lord.' All I could think while listening to those words was, "Do I really believe this to be true in my life?" At that present moment I felt convicted because I know that there are so many things in my life that more often than not, get in the way of my relationship with Jesus. I know that there are days, weeks, and months even when anyone could take a look at my life and see that I am not living a life that screams 'I LOVE JESUS!' That thought breaks my heart.

I want to be an authentic Christian. I want my relationship with Jesus to be so real and genuine that my love for him permeates throughout my daily life. I fail at my walk with the Lord daily; hourly even - but the beautiful thing about the gospel and about God's love for me, is that when I am weak He is strong. When I fail at walking out my faith, I can look to a God whose love for me is not conditional upon my ability to serve him and reach perfection, and rest in knowing that His mercies for me are new each day.

I forget who said it, but there's a quote floating around out there that goes something like this, "The Christian walk is falling and getting up, all the way to Heaven." I cannot tell you how encouraging that is - to know that I'm not the only one who struggles, and that I am continually being sanctified and redeemed by a God who would take up the cross all over again just for me, knowing that I would fail him.

'Hear my Cry, O God, listen to my prayer; from the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I, for you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the enemy. Let me dwell in your tent forever! Let me take refuge under the shelter of your wings! For you, O God, have heard my vows; you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.'
-Psalm 61:1-5

-Kelsey